Long term safe benzo use

Sup guys. 1st time posting in this section of the forum but wanted to know if anybody has experience with benzo's. I'm currently on 20mg of lexamil for about 5 years now for depression and anxiety and wanted to know if taking minimum 1 benzo (0.5mg rivitrol) once a week long term would be fine? I find it really relaxes me after a heavy busy week of work. I take modafinil (100mg 2days and 50mg the other 2 days) per shift as i work nightshift 4x a week and at the end I pop a 0.5mg rivitrol to chill me out after all that stimulation of the working week. Any advice would be highly appreciated thanks! 

Modafinil is an amphetamine based, and that made my anxiety go wild, so my thinking is just use modafinil at the lowest dose possible.

Is it the 100mg days that you feel you need to use the benzos?

If you are using it once a week that isnt un heard of, but you would be better off using a shorter acting benzo like alzam. Rivotrol is a very long acting drug and is once a day application stuff, but if it is infrequent usage should cause no harm.

My friend who owns a rehab says the biggest influx over the years to his rehab has been benzo addiction and is the one of the only drugs that can cause with drawl symptoms where people can die, alchohol and opiods being the others..

They had a case where someone died during detox at their facility which prompted them to cancel the detox service they used to do in-house and have pushed that out to one of the local hospitals to do and only admit patients once detox is completed.

Remember there is a price of doing business, and every drug you use has a price. So know that can be the tax you may have to pay if you go down that road.

Modafinil doesn't cause me anxiety so I'm grateful for that. So out of the 4 days that I work, 2 days I use 100mg and the other 2 50mg which is a total of 200mg per week and the rivitrol I just pop once a week at the end of my work week to relax.

Yeah I heard about benzo addiction and something that I am really aware of and will not use it more than once a week and will ensure that I will never get addicted to it. Thanks for the advice empire I really appreciate it.

I would love to go off my antidepressant too but In this day and age, its just hard to survive without it.

Well you seem to have it all worked out then.

Yea they are very useful drugs SSRI's but as 00pump said to me once about psychedelics is they only work as well as the inner work you are doing to make sure you learn proper coping mechanisms.

Have you considered micro dosing with psychedelic mushrooms. While Modafinil and Rivitrol may provide temporary relief from anxiety and stress, it's important to consider their potential long-term effects and the risk of dependency, as you've wisely acknowledged.
Psychedelic mushrooms, particularly when micro dosed, offer a promising avenue for mental health support. Micro dosing involves taking sub-perceptual doses of psychedelics, such as mushrooms containing psilocybin, on a regular basis. Research and anecdotal reports suggest that micro dosing can enhance mood, creativity, and cognitive function, while also reducing symptoms of anxiety and depression.
By incorporating micro dosing into your routine, you may find relief from the symptoms you're currently managing, potentially reducing your reliance on medications like antidepressants. Additionally, the therapeutic effects of psychedelics may extend beyond symptom management, fostering a deeper sense of connection with yourself and the world around you.
However, it's essential to approach microdosing with caution and responsibility. Educating yourself about proper dosing, set and setting, and harm reduction practices is crucial for maximizing the benefits and minimizing any potential risks. Additionally, it's important to consult with a healthcare professional before making any changes to your medication regimen.
Ultimately, exploring psychedelic micro dosing may offer you a new perspective and an opportunity for growth and healing. If you're interested in learning more, I can provide additional resources and support to guide you on your journey.

Empire wrote:

Well you seem to have it all worked out then.

Yea they are very useful drugs SSRI's but as 00pump said to me once about psychedelics is they only work as well as the inner work you are doing to make sure you learn proper coping mechanisms.

100% fact, very true. 

Addiction doesn't mean one has to take something everyday. Anyway...

All the rivotril is doing is slamming on the brakes (GABA), by doing this your body is creating a dependency due to its inability to slow down after a week without the need for a drug.

What is the reason for the modafinil? You know your entire journey is completely up to you to navigate, with your belief system.. I used the top end of all stimulant medication for a number of years because I "had to", I had so many reasons why and they all made sense to me, family, psychiatrists, etc. As well as other psychiatric drugs.

There is another path where you can focus and control your nervous system positively and negatively without the need psychiatric medication, but it does require allot of work.

For some people a glass of wine or a whiskey at the end of the week is what they need, it sounds like what you need is a rivotril, I personally don't like to have to depend on anything and found it frustrating that I required external medication to balance my body and was more frustrated that I was not able to do it myself.

If you coming looking for affirmation that it isn't a bad idea long term then clearly that's the answer you looking for as well as the reasoning you find taking a stimulant doesn't seem to affect you, however it clearly does hence the reason for the rivotril because you sending 1 signal to turn on your nervous system and another to turn it off, and it's way to fragile to just play within that space without it going further than that in time or without it changing your character, whether it being more irritable, tired, less drive, poor sleep, eating habits, dependency, inability to do your job without "your pills", inability to turn off at the end of a week without "something", etc etc.