steroid addiction

Hi guys, I'm tired of using steroids and want to quiet, but can't seem to. Am I addicted? Is there such a thing as steroid addiction? I am not a competitive b/b so I don't think I should b using. I get very very aggressive on steroids and it also alters my mental state of mind. I want to stop before I kill someone and end up behind bars. I don't know why I keep using it and I can't seem to stop (I know it sounds weird, but its true) I am addictive to steroids or the effect it has on me. I just want to stop. Any positive advise would be welcomed. Thanks

think its more the effect it has on you rather than the compound imho...

jeeze being agro is bad dude that can get u in the doodaa...

i dont know of anything legal that can replace that feeling...

pepsi...if you catch my drift... :woohoo: JOKING JOKING JOKING

Mmmm, ya I also think its the effect it has on one that could make it somewhat addictive, but how do I overcome this?

Hi yes addiction is a real thing and I suffer something very similar, even after I have had a heart attack, kidney disease, liver abnormalities, etc I still use..

The problem is psychological and you need to work out why you keep wanting to take, a complex issue by the sounds of it (not trying to be crule) but the reason I say that is because its clear you have a severe temper when you use gear. So it is bringing out something that might have been an issue when you where younger, felt small, weak, got bullied teased, didn't feel comfortable about your size / looks, whatever. If you can suppress that feeling and find a way to be happy with yourself then I feel you will not need the steroids, because they seem like they actually counter productive.

Maybe if you shift your focus and change your lifestyle, you might want to gym for a total different reason, to enter Iron Man, or ride the Argus, or whatever... But you need to find something, maybe even boxing or MMA or Karate?

However now you need to control your anger or you will not have a successful relationship and things will fall down all around you, just the way the world works. However I don't know much about you, so I could be tapping in completely the wrong angel... Yes steroids give some a sense of well being a proper PCT not carried out will make us crave testosterone not in a chemical way (addiction) but to find a balance in our bodies, or else depression, low self esteem, anxiety, and the list goes on... So maybe a good hard PCT, some natural test boosters and you will feel otherwise when you off a cycle?

If you would like further advise you would need to give me information...

In the mean time, how old are you? How long have you used gear? What gear do you find makes you so aggressive ?

Good advice there pump and i agree there is definitely more discussion to be had about the topic!

I too love the feeling i get when using, lucky for me i don’t feel I’m addicted. When my cycle is finished i get off and can go off for a couple of years without it bothering me. I think what does get me trough it is the fact that i love training and knowing juice is not 100% of my gains! I know that when on juice and you neglect your diet the cycle is almost wasted! so for me i always focussed on making sure i get all aspects right. Staying in good company of level headed people also help allot!

redcat, perhaps some advice i have is similar to pump, shift your focus more on the diet and getting all you can from that...not the same as juice i know but hopefully this might help. This will take allot of willpower from your side and perhaps getting professional help might be the way to go?

All the best bud!

Wow thanks pump. Ok a little about me:
32 years, using for the last 8 years. I did have childhood issues. I used to stutter but eventually overcame that. I also have anxiety issues. I always had anger issues. Been to therapy. I just want to stop using....

Thaks Etwa. I guess shifting my attention would be the most logical thing to do and not to forget will power.

Something Jay Cutler said this weekend really made me sit up and take notice. You have to believe in yourself. and in your particular case this applies! believe you can do it and back yourself, and do it!

redcat wrote: Wow thanks pump. Ok a little about me:
32 years, using for the last 8 years. I did have childhood issues. I used to stutter but eventually overcame that. I also have anxiety issues. I always had anger issues. Been to therapy. I just want to stop using....

Certain steroids bring the onset of anxiety and makes it even more transparent. When anxiety is not dealt with or handled in a controllable manner ones body tends to react out in aggression. Your anxiety is probably the current reason why you still use gear. It is due to the fact that while feeling anxies, steroids must have a part to play in making you feel you are more in control of the situation and you channeling that into aggression. You need to get rid off your anxiety because the anxiety is making you not feel happy with who you are... If you find a way to boast endorphins, such as sky diving, rock climbing, dune boarding, surfing, anything that gets a good Burt of seratonin will eventually rid you that feeling.. drugs are probably the worst thing to use in treatment.. do you take recreational drugs? Hang around here use us as a support line, let us know if you eager to take and let all the guys help keep you strong... anyway hard to type on my phone so I'm having a hard time expressing myself properly.. will update tomorrow.

Ok I guess I need to be a bit more descriptive of my experience with aas. On cycle I experience severe aggression and a heightened feeling of well being. I don't suffer from anxiety, mood swings or depression on cycle, that starts only post cycle and lasts well after my pct. I figured the anxiety and depression and mood swings results from the imbalance of my hormone levels. This roller coaster of emotions effects my work and family life. I know my marriage can't handle another steroid cycle and I need to stop. Once my hormones balance themselves out, everything returns to normal. I become a normal, more tolerable person and I don't have any emotional issues...... Until I start using AGAIN.
I convince myself that I can handle one last cycle and I make myself believe that this cycle would turn out better than the past ones. It never is better, its always worse.
So basically, I have little self control and I need to get my priorities in order. Like I said 'I'm not a competitive b/b and I should not be using' especially if I react so terribly.
I'm the guy that gives steroids a bad reputation... lol
Ok Pump! Now you know the whole story. Nothing was sugar coated, only the truth.
Do you think I have a serious problem and how do I make sure I never use again? Thanks boet

Redcat i feel for you bud and really hope you sort it out! My opinion is to go cold turkey as soon as possible and get intervention to get to the root of the emotions. It might be that you developed a chemical or hormonal (hormonal goes without saying) instability. I think it is quit possible for a person to get a "social" addiction to steroids. You love the changes it makes to your body, you strive to improve and you love the reaction you get from people.

I also have anxiety issues. Mine started after i went through a 2 or 3 year period of trying allot of shit and kind of had a lifestyle that involved allot of the devils dandruff. It onviously caused a chemical inbalance with me and resulted in intense anxiety periodically. I learned how to handle it bud its uncomfortable. When im in certain confrontational situation i just want to run through a wall. Unfortunately i cannot set the time back and change things.

In your case you have allot to loose (marraiage ect) so you better act on this soon bud. All the best

redcat i feel for u bad buddy,but it clear that u cant be using testosterones and things like that to grow, your best option if you would still like to do the whole gym route is 1st off nutrition and then second off growth hormone,these dont effect your hormones at all(well nutrition can as it is needed for healthy hormone balance)

some people just cant use steroids because of the person they become,so you my friend have to look at different methods of growing.

good luck redcat,hope that you can sort out the issues u have been having in a normal civil manner

thanks abc. wow....... i thought i was the only guy that went through this. glad to know that im not alone. most guys never admit it. thanks alot for the input

redcat just a question,what steroids have you been using and what steroids do you find spark the problem more? is tren one of them?

thanks DJ. you hit the nail right on the head boet. I am researching the peptide route as we speak. i have to admit that i dont know much about peptides so i need to educate myself first.
i really appreciate all the input guys. speaking with you guys have really made a difference..... you have no idea as to how much. i feel so much lighter getting this of my chest. i always thought people would think that im weird..lol thanks guys

yep tren and testosterone are the biggest culprits

Any steroid will increase aggression.. Don't look for an excuse to keep using because that is clearly what you doing everytime you do another cycle, you convince yourself this time will be ok because I'm doing ABC... Just leave it alone, you past the age you need to worry about how big you are or how small you are. You said it yourself you not a bodybuilder (competitive) bodybuilder so just leave it alone.

Any rehab program will help as it will find the route of the reason you keep wanting to cycle... As I said we can all support you here, but you need to make a promise to yourself you will let everyone know prior to doing another cycle..

The other advise is get yourself a clean hard PCT done, you need a proper powerhouse PCT, specially at your age, you already starting to go downhill. You need to get some natural testosterone boosters and see natuarlly what you can do for yourself.

Growth hormones are an option but they are not studied long term enough to know if they develop any other types of growth's (cancer, etc) so I would use it with caution... Just get yourself fit and healthy, being fit will increase you levels of testosterone too, hardcore training and lots of sex increases testosterone too...

Come bro, your precious wife doesn't deserve a doos, someone that treats her bad and speaks to her with disrepect..

Lekka

Yep I am getting older and I'm not gonna let anyone know when I go on another cycle cause I'm never going on cycle again, but if I'm stupid enough to consider another cycle, I would certainly let u know and it would then be perfectly fine for u to call me a doos.
As for pct... I have just completed mine
Nolvadex
Aromasin
Ovidrel
And clomid at the beggining of the pct
My libido seems to be just fine, so I think that my test levels are ok (not perfect, but ok)

Thats great, nobody will call you a doos, but we will try swade you away from it, as it isn't the best idea for someone in your position.. Good luck with it

I had a friend like this , The one thing that people dont realize is the power of the human brain , you can really do anything if you put your mind to it, Think about things logically if you ever think about doing another cycle ask your self Do i want a healthy and happy life with my wife? if your Answer is YES then dont do it , glad to see you feeling better about this. Back to my friend he told me some times he would have just bough some vials of test about to do another cycle and he would say to him self its not worth it and just completely smash them to pieces straight away with out even thinking so he wouldn't hesitate , it seems crazy but once you have done it it feels better and you dont have the same need/addiction to have more and it will eventually get better and better

Thanks Wilson, I think I have matured a little. I don't feel like I would ever take any sort of steroids anymore, but I'm not sure if I will feel like this in a year. However if I really want to, then I may consider g/h, but I just don't buy all the hype about peptides. I think the side effects of peptides are not as mild as people think (nothing mild about irreversible organ enlargement). Ya! so, maybe peptides but no form of synthetic testosterone whatsoever.
I know this may sound childish and it probably is, but back in the day there were only a few guys who knew about steroids and were big enough to raise a few eyebrows, however now almost every lity out there is jabbing his ass trying to beat his friend with the big arms Now we are no more the centre of attention..... Lol :woohoo:
But anyway like I said earlier "I think I have matured a little"

Thanks Wilson, I think I have matured a little. I don't feel like I would ever take any sort of steroids anymore, but I'm not sure if I will feel like this in a year. However if I really want to, then I may consider g/h, but I just don't buy all the hype about peptides. I think the side effects of peptides are not as mild as people think (nothing mild about irreversible organ enlargement). Ya! so, maybe peptides but no form of synthetic testosterone whatsoever.
I know this may sound childish and it probably is, but back in the day there were only a few guys who knew about steroids and were big enough to raise a few eyebrows, however now almost every lity out there is jabbing his ass trying to beat his friend with the big arms Now we are no more the centre of attention..... Lol :woohoo:
But anyway like I said earlier "I think I have matured a little"