Broke up after pct-heart sore-muscle loss

Hey guys I don't know if I could post such a topic but I ended pct a few weeks back and lost abt 2kga since nd I've been pretty much fine till Saturday when my doll nd I broke up for good she said she fell outta love with me a while back and it's not my fault nd a whole lot of bullshit sad part is for some reason I just don't know what's wrong with me yes I'm still sulking but I have no motivation at gym I don't feel like going anywhere I'm eating pretty much what ever just trying to keep them clean like still a lot of good carbs nd high quality protein if anything I'm eating more now that I ever ate before but my weight is constantly dropping nd I am lossing proper muslce mass
My stats were
Height 1.8
Bf 15%
Weight 96.8

Today my stats were
Height 1.8
Bf% 15
Weight 92.1

Both stats were taken under the same conditions and I don't know what the hell is wrong with me please help

Sounds like depression.. It's one of the 3 most difficult things to go through in life, it's sometimes even harder than a death because the person is still alive, but not in your life..

Anyway because this is a steroid forum I must tell you to monitor yourself when you on a cycle, Allot of people I have met are very self absorbed , bodybuilding is a selfish sport, Jay Cutler has recently spoke about it and the strain it put on his marriage.. you really do think the world revolves around you, food, rest, not going out, going to gym, being sore after a session, mood swings, all you ever do is speak about yourself and not compliment and make your partner feel special.. I lost two 4 year relationships because of my behaviour on steroids.. I've had to bang my head hard to learn how to live a balanced life and not allow the hormones to set my ego through the roof.. majority of the time one will just deny it as it's so deeply rooted into us that we feel it's OK to behave the way we do..

I do believe if it's meant to be it will come right, the universe has some crazy ways about it... make yourself a better person and you will attract good things into your life, specially when you putting somebody ahead of you, it gives you a fulfilling purpose in life.

Some very good advice, and accurate observations. We are a selfish bunch. And well sometimes the line is blurred...

Sorry about the break up bud. Just imagine... If you loved the wrong person that much, just wait till the right one comes into your life.

Train hard, and eat right. Don't get led off the path.

All the best man!

Thank u so much guys I really appreciate the advice and yes I'm
Just sorting out my training program now nd adjusting my diet I'll start killing it again from
Monday I just need this week to emotionally prepare and let go because I just don't see how someone can "fall outta love " with me after 2 and a half years...just don't make sense...
Anyway thanks guys just wanna get my act together recover nicely get my training and diet back up to optimum
And maybe hit another cycle in April/may

Thanks again guys

Post everything bud... Let's see where we can help!

Mason Might wrote: Post everything bud... Let's see where we can help!

I'll second that. Lets have you bounce back better and stronger than before that's what it's all about

That's a reason I like this place, people actually care, not many forums like that.

That's true chemi1 , we are a community on this forum , we care for each other and help each other where we can

Ok guys thanks a lot so we've dated for 2years and 5 months
She knew everything about me she was never happy that I used steroids but she accepted it and I've never raged out at her and I always put her first like attend to her first then myself...when we said goodbye she told it's neither of our faults and she wanted to fall hopelessly in love with me because I treated her so well but she just couldn't... I asked her for a reason she said she honestly doesn't know... She doesn't have someone else she really doesn't she was faithful...so it feels like my world is crashing down right now... Last night my sleep broke 4X i slept with my aircon on and I woke up covered in sweat, each time my sleep broke she popped in my head and I literally told myself it's over....I'm going to gym after lunch but I feel weak as hell and I'm doubling my dose of preworkout just to get thru a session...
She and I always ended up together some how like we broke up for 4 months at one time with no communication and we ended up back together but this time she told me please continue with my life and don't stick around with the hopes of us getting back together and I think that's what's killing me inside

Try get bloods done to make sure your test levels have actually recovered and estrogen is in normal range. If test is still low after pct the combination of a heart break will feel worse than what it normally does.

Other than that, it is going to suck but just imagine how many people around the world have gone through this numerous times. As bad as it feels we've all been there and it can REALLY hurt sometimes but part of life.

I can't begin to cover this fully but you want to try change the sulking for some anger (how can you not be pissed off about this?) and use that to go at life, the gym, social life like an animal . Don't ever let another person destroy you, fight back by living better than ever. Whenever I have broken up or was heart broken it literally gave me so much motivation I had to watch myself but I used that energy to get up earlier, hit gym every time and with more intensity, eat like a god, make social connections all the time including new female interactions which is important and also focusing on being great at work.

Lex buddy

I really hope you bounce back quick because I know that pain you are feeling right now

But buddy your not alone and we here wil try and help you as we can

Thanks guys I appreciate it and no for some reason I can't get angry I don't know why but I can't today's sesh was ok I lost my focus a few times but still pushed thru it

Well that's a bit of good news buddy

Things are looking up

Why not try following a programme off bodybuilding. Com?

The shift may be enough to distract you from all that and get you back into beast mode...

Plus I'm looking for a guinea pig to try Dog crapp :lol:

My advice is a little different mate, plenty of fish in the sea and you will find another, looking back saying why was I so depressed. Your women must accept you for who you are and this is you. When you think about her picture a stop sign, then say to yourself the following : Fuck you, I was worth it. Move on brother, chin up. If she doesn't love you she is not worth it. Sorry for the bad news and today is the present, don't waste it...

Mason might what's the program called bro ? Can u post a link ?

Thanks fillet I know u are right another mate of mine told me something simialr to what u just said I guess I just gotta move on now
Thanks so much guys

Sorry to hear dude you know what just ggo to gym i promise u u will feel beter for that hour when u in the gym. I broke up with my ex in feb and we were together for 7 years it hit me but only thing that helped me through those times was pushing time in thhe gym. This motivated me alot dont loose hope.

Buddy I know at this moment it stil hurts , and you feel like you don't even want to look at other woman right now , but you will find happiness again

What Fillet said and what ever you do never show her that you are in the dumps. Show the exact opposite. I promise you it will grate the shit out of her.

Here's my advice:
1: Focus on yourself for now, do something new or do something that will keep your mind busy. Don't sit home doing nothing, go out with friends or family but don't go partying/drinking.
2: Don't blame yourself. She left you and that is good, because you never have to second guess your decision.
3: Don't try to hide your emotions, cry if you have to or talk to someone if you have to.
4: Don't feel sorry for yourself, the emotional roller coaster you are experiencing is part of the process, take it like a man.
5: Break all contact with her, don't look at photos of her. Don't speak to her friends or family.
6: Pack anything that reminds you of her away for now, you will know what do with those things once you got over her.
7: Don't even think about new relationships and whatever you do, do not look for a new GF. You will find someone else once you are ready.
8: Don't be childish and try to make her feel guilty or bad in any way. It will only make things harder for yourself.
9: Stay proud of yourself and be confident. You will look back at this one day and realize that it made you allot stronger.
10: Don't think about fixing the relationship, there is no more hope. She doesn't love you and you need someone that loves you back. All relationships require love from both parties to work. You will find someone that loves you back eventually and you will be amazed how effortless it is to keep a relationship like that going strong.

11: Listen to 00pump.

That's some great advice

Lex buddy, take it easy tonight and stay safe man...

Hey guys sorry haven't been on here today just put my phone off she messaged me this morning asking how's my eye (long story I hurt it a few days back) and I just was being a lil blunt with her nd she said I will never understand how much this also hurts her and with my replies I continue to break her heart ? I was like wtf!!!! Wtf are u on about u left u the one that fell outta love u lost faith in us not me...I could tell she was hurting tho so I just dropped it nd said sorry for being rude and abrupt enjoy the rest of your day...
Thanks guys for all the advice, there's a small prob tho I went to jhb on a work related issue for 3 weeks in September so I gave her my tag watched valued at 103k I told her keep it because it will remind her of me till I come back she messaged me saying she will seem me soon to give it back to me.... I swear at this point she can keep the fucking watch! Honestly It means nothing to me I buy watches yearly...she is insisting she wants to give it back to me so I said ok fine I'll see u soon...
This whole thing is just stupid it's just freaking killing my mood...I have a few days till work starts up again so I'm trying to get my shit together...
Anyway ja I spent 2 hrs today at gym I knw it's a lil long epeacially considering I came off pct nd my test levels aren't fully up yet but I really needed it...it felt so good...

I really can't picture myself with anyone else at the moment because there isn't anyone I'm my life and yes I really don't feel like looking at the female species right now I just need to get my shit together and I really don't want another relationship this one fucked me over because it came to a point where I actually loved her more than myself and it turns out I was loving someone that the feeling had died for a while ago so fuck